That.ZedChick

Him.Her.You.Me.All.Unique.But.One.Race.The.Human.Race
Only God can judge me, nobody else
#Preach


Give up or Give in

So am still doing re-sits….not a laughing matter. My mind is done, my body is dying.
Today my work was reviewed, a 12 year old could do better. Have I really lost my creativity? Am I really a true failure? 
Now am sat in bed continuing to worry about my future….what if am not actually cut out to be a designer like I wasn’t to be a biomedical scientist, doctor, nurse and lawyer? Now what?
Who and what am I really? 
I never showed fear the first time I fell into failure, but 2014 has been the most difficult for me that sleep and tears seems to be the only medicine to keep me calm.
I can’t speak to anyone, they won’t understand fully what’s happening to me….they’ll just say it’s laziness/stupidity or am a dull useless black girl.
There’s the route of all pressure on my head. Being a black African woman, under 25 pathetically dependant on her parents.
My family expects Soo much whilst society excepts Soo little of me. 
Friends seem confused.
Lover is clueless. Am in pain and drowning from all the words and expectations. I followed my own but others seemed to catch up and continue to strangle me to death.
What is my purpose Lord? I’ve failed so many times, isn’t that enough? 
Please answer me.

Give up or Give in

So am still doing re-sits….not a laughing matter. My mind is done, my body is dying.
Today my work was reviewed, a 12 year old could do better. Have I really lost my creativity? Am I really a true failure?
Now am sat in bed continuing to worry about my future….what if am not actually cut out to be a designer like I wasn’t to be a biomedical scientist, doctor, nurse and lawyer? Now what?
Who and what am I really?
I never showed fear the first time I fell into failure, but 2014 has been the most difficult for me that sleep and tears seems to be the only medicine to keep me calm.
I can’t speak to anyone, they won’t understand fully what’s happening to me….they’ll just say it’s laziness/stupidity or am a dull useless black girl.
There’s the route of all pressure on my head. Being a black African woman, under 25 pathetically dependant on her parents.
My family expects Soo much whilst society excepts Soo little of me.
Friends seem confused.
Lover is clueless. Am in pain and drowning from all the words and expectations. I followed my own but others seemed to catch up and continue to strangle me to death.
What is my purpose Lord? I’ve failed so many times, isn’t that enough?
Please answer me.

Best mascara I’ve ever owned #nyc #bigbold #mascara  (at Grove Gardens)

Best mascara I’ve ever owned #nyc #bigbold #mascara (at Grove Gardens)

Scarf day! #postwashday #naturalhair #afrohaircare #tlc

Scarf day! #postwashday #naturalhair #afrohaircare #tlc

Going all Jamie Oliver nowadays :)

Going all Jamie Oliver nowadays :)

It’s always this time of night I create the most bizarre meals, yet tasty ๐Ÿ˜‚ #tuna #plantain #salad lol! #foodinnovation

It’s always this time of night I create the most bizarre meals, yet tasty ๐Ÿ˜‚ #tuna #plantain #salad lol! #foodinnovation

Reblogged from theculturedactivist

niggawillyoushutthefuckup:

theculturedactivist:

Open your eyes.

New age Genocideย 

what do you see…?

(via blackfashion)

Reblogged from beharie-nyongo

Lupita Nyongโ€™o On Inspiring Young, Dark-skinned People to See Beauty Differently

(Source: beharie-nyongo, via darkskinnedblackbeauty)

Ended up with a smoothie ice cream #wonderfulcreations #greensmoothie #delicious #blueberry #spinach #befitmotivation #eatclean

Ended up with a smoothie ice cream #wonderfulcreations #greensmoothie #delicious #blueberry #spinach #befitmotivation #eatclean

Last Night #lastminuteparty #latenight #studentlife #nosleep

Last Night #lastminuteparty #latenight #studentlife #nosleep

When boredom strikes #uni #mornings #crazyfriends :) ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜˜

When boredom strikes #uni #mornings #crazyfriends :) ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜˜